Shouldn't Have You — Carrie Ann Ryan

I've been many things in my life: daughter, friend, student, lover, wife…and now, widow. Getting past those labels and finding who I could be without them was the hardest thing I've ever done.Then I became friends with Brendon Connolly.Every time I look at him, I see a past, I see a present, and I'm afraid if I look too hard, I'll see a future.~~~I've known Harmony Wynham since before she got married. Before she lost everything. I didn't know that one day she wouldn't be just my friend but the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.Only I don't think that can happen.Not when every time she looks at me, she sees what she lost, and I can only see what I can't overcome.I love her, even though I shouldn't. Somehow, we need to find a balance.Because if we don't, walking away will be the hardest thing I've ever done -- even if it's the only thing I should do.