Ewan: Finding Myself — Lee Wardlow

Ewan Finding Myself 7 Brides for 7 Brothers 6 Brides 7 Brothers What about me? Ewan Steward, I'm the last unmarried brother. The perfect Steward sons giving Ian Steward what he wanted. Daughters-in-law. Grandchildren. The only brother who has always been different both in his head and in his father's eyes. The last man in the family who is trying to find himself and what it means to be Ewan Steward. Who is that man that I look at in the mirror? What does he want in life? I've hurt enough people. Tasha. Leo. Greer too. My last relationship, with Tasha was a year and a half long. She was different from Greer. I made sure of that. Drama free. I didn't need to rescue her from herself. She was smart, funny and successful but I was just settling and not because she was a woman. She just wasn't the right one for me. I loved her but not enough. Dad was hoping this attraction to men, thing was over because of Greer and Tasha. It hurt me, that he couldn't accept me or love me, his son as I was beginning to accept myself. A bisexual man. Leo had it right. Some are born to love men. Some are born to love women. Some are just born to love who they love. I was attracted to both sexes. After a fight at Steward Steel with Brodie, about being normal and hurting our father, I was once again unemployed. My choice, not his. I quit. Walked away. I had to have my pride. On a lonely Saturday night, I walked into Mac's in Pointe Royal and sat by Tucker Barnes. Tucker had his own secrets, his own issues about his sexuality and my life changed for the better in some respects. Working for Tucker and loving him could prove to be complicated unless we don't let it get that way. Tucker gets me. Our stories are different, but, so much alike that love between us is inevitable. Family, work or our own stupid mistakes could keep this from working out between us. Let's be honest here, I've been known to self-destruct relationships in the past, like with Greer Baird Steward, my brother Finlay's wife…now. Tucker thinks I'm selfless and sensitive. I walked away when I knew it was right for Finlay and Greer even though it broke my own heart. I had screwed it up by letting Leo in my life. Subconsciously thinking I didn't deserve to be happy? Or just happy, someone like Leo, finally understood me. Did it really matter anymore? Fin and Greer are happy. That's all that matters now. Have I learned from my mistakes? Tucker could be the one person who helps me finally discover who I am and give me what I have always wanted. A relationship that is stable and loving. A future, with children. I've spent my whole life hiding my true feelings about myself and how I feel about loving men. It's time to find myself and what it means to be the man I want to be not who my family wants me to be. Who is Ewan Steward? What happens to me may or may not surprise you. If I fall in love this time, man or woman it will be the right one because I won't settle for less than what I deserve. I learned that much in the last few years after some pretty, hard lessons. M/M Sexual Situations. Not for readers under 18.